I have been writing these blog posts about my mama to get out the feelings that I had been trying to keep inside. It has been therapeutic and at the same time so heartwarming to get support from all of YOU. Never, never did I expect to hear from the woman herself…this was her response:
TF (Tiny Fluff). On one hand, I am so sorry that you have had to take this journey with me, but on the other hand I wouldn’t have it any other way and I couldn’t have done it without you. For every awful, scary thing we have learned and faced and survived, we have become stronger and more appreciative of the life we have. I am so grateful to have a daughter that is both strong and compassionate. I am so grateful that you have been my cheerleader, advocate, organizer, support and most of all my friend. I am so grateful that you have a huge support system in family and friends that will hold you up and hold you close.
I am so proud to see your positive little face, when I know that your insides are in aching turmoil just like mine. I am so proud to see you with your family and what a strong wife and mother you are, even as you struggle to be a strong daughter. I am so proud of your initiative and your perseverance and skill in building your own lifelong dream of a business that is so totally you. I am so proud of the baby girl I raised to be a beautiful, competent, creative, wonderful woman.
I am thankful to take the burden of this illness and that it hasn’t fallen on you or your family. I am thankful that we have come to realize how important the littlest things are. I am thankful for the sun and sea and air. I am thankful for the love of friends and family. I am thankful that we have some time.
And for now, I will do as you have taught me — take it one day at a time, one minute at a time if need be. You are always with me in my heart, and I will always be with you.
ILYTMITEU (I Love You The Most In The Entire Universe)
…I have few words for this response. I love and hate that we are going through this experience. If it is possible to have become closer with her, we have. I am very grateful for this time with her and we will fight, fight, fight like we have done everything else we have been through together. I love you mama and thank you for your beautiful response. It means more to me than you will ever know.